Life is Hard

My nervous break-down view - The Gilbert Temple 

Sometimes (actually this is the first time) when I'm having a nervous breakdown (this isn't my first by any means) my husband gets me my own hotel room for one night so I can get grounded again. I know he does this 99% for me and my sanity but that other 1% comes from his fear of WHAT IS HAPPENING TO HER! Here's the view from my hotel room... it speaks volumes to me. Also, I have to ask, does everyone else just handle life better than me? Why isn't everyone else running to hotels to get a grip?

Or maybe the better question... 

Why don't we share our messiness with each other more? 

Happy Father's Day

I don't know who is luckier… me (because I have my dad as a dad) or my kids (because they have their dad as a dad). Happy Father's Day to these two amazing dads. Welcome to their boulevard, they are the presidents… 
obviously! 

Today Brayden was TERRIBLE. He gets so panicky and looses perspective. I hope he gets things figured out. We are trying something new, something we are referring to as “snap”. I am sure I will be following up with this.

Bella is incredibly cute and sweet. It’s almost too cute and too sweet!

Jack is solid. He is needy but he is solid. He was so excited to serve Jon today for Father’s Day. We started a restaurant called “Jack’s Warehouse Storage Unit” and it was fun! We made everyone nachos and served everyone in bed for nap time! Jack is SOLID.

Recovery Life

I'm feeling melancholy. 

Driving with the family to Newport thinking about how a year ago, while we were here, I was getting ready to present at my first fireside about body image! It feels like a lifetime ago!

It is amazing how sharing my story has changed my life! Just this week I sat with a stranger waiting for a call from Remuda. The call came while I was visiting with her. That was on Wednesday afternoon and she went in on Thursday morning.

It's amazing how "helping" others actually helps me... A MILLION TIMES MORE.

It's such a tool in my recovery. I feel so lucky. I didn't do anything special. But I sure get treated like I did!