It's been 2 days. Two full days that all 3 of my kids have been in school. Well people, it didn't take me long to get over my sadness and start feeling the reality of how much FREEDOM I have!!! I almost feel guilty for having so much time to do WHATEVER I want to do.
Right now I'm working on organizing and planning the DP Air "Reno Air Races" event. Yes, I quit my job in November, but I was thrilled when they asked me to do this event. Mostly because of the connection I have to the races and the people that were with me last year when that beautiful P-51 Mustang crashed 35 feet away from my seat. I think it was very sensitive and thoughtful of DP Air to ask me to organize it again (although, I'm still a bit in shock that it's actually happening again this year). So, that is keeping me busy... even still, I have never had this much FREEDOM! I'm also staying busy with my church calling. With the Primary Program scheduled for September 30th, I'm in the trenches of making sure all the kiddos know the songs. Oh, I probably should mention that I'm the Primary Chorister (which I absolutely love).
So, I'm keeping myself occupied for now. I have realized that I'm a person that feels very satisfied when I am busy. Idol time scares the CRAPOLA out of me. I am hoping to get better at enjoying idol time. I need to feel comfy in my own skin when I am relaxing. I don't know what it is about running around all day in a mass confusion that makes me feel like I have "accomplished" something when I put my head on my pillow at night. Honestly, I'm WAY too far on that side of thinking... it's unhealthy. So, I'm going to start (or I've already started) doing a little meditation (I just reminded myself of my mom, this is something she would say... I call her a "witch doctor"). Because of my ongoing knee issues, I started trying new ways of getting the "runners high". This process was NOT FUN for me at all. I like to run because it's moving and fast and intense (I just realized that my literal running and my earlier explanation of only feeling satisfied when I am moving ALL the time, relate). Interesting (oh crap, my mom always says "interesting"). Anyway, I tried all different types of things. I tried biking (still hurt my knee), roller blading (why did I think I could roller blade if I can't run?), power yoga, yoga, pilates, yogalates (or whatever you call it when yoga and pilates are combined), pilates on the reformer, I tried group core classes, zumba, swimming (or in my case drowning), step classes, lifting, etc... I tried a variety of workouts, and I wasn't finding what I needed. Then there was Groupon (imagine a light beaming from above lighting up this word... and of course, heavenly music).
Groupon had a deal (which is a repetitive statement) . Something like 10 bikram yoga classes for $30... normally they are $30 a class... so I thought, I'm in. Done and done. Okay, I'm so happy to took the plunge because I LOVE BIKRAM YOGA. The room is anywhere from 100-110 degrees so pretty early in the class I was feeling that "beyond human" feeling that I found with running. I love sweating and stretching and man, it's hard. But alas, my 10 sessions came to an end. So, I'm back to figuring out what to do that doesn't break the bank!! However, in my endless search, I kinda fell in love with yoga. So (back to sounding like my mom) I have discovered the importance of meditation in my personal life. It feels good. It's like a "time-out" for me and it fuels me a lot. So, I'm declaring, to all 3 of my readers, that I am going to find a way to work meditation into my day, EVERY DAY. (the three of you reading this better follow up with me to keep me in line).
In the meantime, do any of you have any thing that you can share about the ways you stay on "full" rather than on "empty" (and if anyone says "running" I'm coming after you!!)? I like discovering new things.
Okay, so on a random mom note:
What I want to jot down about the first days of school for my kids: I notice that I am a lot, I mean A LOT, more excited to see them when they get home, then they are to see me. I notice that I am ready to play or chat or whatever... just give them my all, but they are too tired and they are sending off some pretty obvious signals that I may be annoying them... this is new. I'm normally the one annoyed! So this change in roles seems to be taking place. The change where kids think their parents are so incredibly awesome and parents think their kids are... well, annoying. I'm starting to see little pieces of a reverse roll happening, and I'm not sure how I feel about it! I'm sure, if I give it time, the kids will get use to their schedules and not be so wasted when they get home and maybe, just maybe, they will want to TELL ME ABOUT THEIR DAY... sigh!
Life is hard. Life is good. Life is sad. Life is happy and joyful. Life is confusing. Life is clear. Everyday, and I mean it, every.single.day. is unique. I'm learning that unique means new... never ever the same as before. So, don't be too hard on yourself for not knowing what to do everyday, even though I'm 31, this is the first time I have experienced life today, so I need help. We all do. I find that my worst enemy is often the thoughts I let mush around in my head telling me how I should be better than I am being. Nope, not going to let these voices go on forever... stopping them slowly but surely. So, be nice to yourself today, it's like all of our "first day"... it's the first time for the expected and unexpected. If you mess up, don't be hard on yourself because now you know and you'll do a little better the next time you find yourself in a similar (not exact) situation... I read a quote today, "we become what we want to be by consistently being what we want to become each day" -Richard G. Scott
So give yourself a break and give those around you a break. If the people in my life who love me didn't give me the benefit while I try to figure things out... well, I'd be lost.
I'm off to meditating (there's my moms voice again)! Have a great Friday!
Right now I'm working on organizing and planning the DP Air "Reno Air Races" event. Yes, I quit my job in November, but I was thrilled when they asked me to do this event. Mostly because of the connection I have to the races and the people that were with me last year when that beautiful P-51 Mustang crashed 35 feet away from my seat. I think it was very sensitive and thoughtful of DP Air to ask me to organize it again (although, I'm still a bit in shock that it's actually happening again this year). So, that is keeping me busy... even still, I have never had this much FREEDOM! I'm also staying busy with my church calling. With the Primary Program scheduled for September 30th, I'm in the trenches of making sure all the kiddos know the songs. Oh, I probably should mention that I'm the Primary Chorister (which I absolutely love).
So, I'm keeping myself occupied for now. I have realized that I'm a person that feels very satisfied when I am busy. Idol time scares the CRAPOLA out of me. I am hoping to get better at enjoying idol time. I need to feel comfy in my own skin when I am relaxing. I don't know what it is about running around all day in a mass confusion that makes me feel like I have "accomplished" something when I put my head on my pillow at night. Honestly, I'm WAY too far on that side of thinking... it's unhealthy. So, I'm going to start (or I've already started) doing a little meditation (I just reminded myself of my mom, this is something she would say... I call her a "witch doctor"). Because of my ongoing knee issues, I started trying new ways of getting the "runners high". This process was NOT FUN for me at all. I like to run because it's moving and fast and intense (I just realized that my literal running and my earlier explanation of only feeling satisfied when I am moving ALL the time, relate). Interesting (oh crap, my mom always says "interesting"). Anyway, I tried all different types of things. I tried biking (still hurt my knee), roller blading (why did I think I could roller blade if I can't run?), power yoga, yoga, pilates, yogalates (or whatever you call it when yoga and pilates are combined), pilates on the reformer, I tried group core classes, zumba, swimming (or in my case drowning), step classes, lifting, etc... I tried a variety of workouts, and I wasn't finding what I needed. Then there was Groupon (imagine a light beaming from above lighting up this word... and of course, heavenly music).
Groupon had a deal (which is a repetitive statement) . Something like 10 bikram yoga classes for $30... normally they are $30 a class... so I thought, I'm in. Done and done. Okay, I'm so happy to took the plunge because I LOVE BIKRAM YOGA. The room is anywhere from 100-110 degrees so pretty early in the class I was feeling that "beyond human" feeling that I found with running. I love sweating and stretching and man, it's hard. But alas, my 10 sessions came to an end. So, I'm back to figuring out what to do that doesn't break the bank!! However, in my endless search, I kinda fell in love with yoga. So (back to sounding like my mom) I have discovered the importance of meditation in my personal life. It feels good. It's like a "time-out" for me and it fuels me a lot. So, I'm declaring, to all 3 of my readers, that I am going to find a way to work meditation into my day, EVERY DAY. (the three of you reading this better follow up with me to keep me in line).
In the meantime, do any of you have any thing that you can share about the ways you stay on "full" rather than on "empty" (and if anyone says "running" I'm coming after you!!)? I like discovering new things.
Okay, so on a random mom note:
What I want to jot down about the first days of school for my kids: I notice that I am a lot, I mean A LOT, more excited to see them when they get home, then they are to see me. I notice that I am ready to play or chat or whatever... just give them my all, but they are too tired and they are sending off some pretty obvious signals that I may be annoying them... this is new. I'm normally the one annoyed! So this change in roles seems to be taking place. The change where kids think their parents are so incredibly awesome and parents think their kids are... well, annoying. I'm starting to see little pieces of a reverse roll happening, and I'm not sure how I feel about it! I'm sure, if I give it time, the kids will get use to their schedules and not be so wasted when they get home and maybe, just maybe, they will want to TELL ME ABOUT THEIR DAY... sigh!
Life is hard. Life is good. Life is sad. Life is happy and joyful. Life is confusing. Life is clear. Everyday, and I mean it, every.single.day. is unique. I'm learning that unique means new... never ever the same as before. So, don't be too hard on yourself for not knowing what to do everyday, even though I'm 31, this is the first time I have experienced life today, so I need help. We all do. I find that my worst enemy is often the thoughts I let mush around in my head telling me how I should be better than I am being. Nope, not going to let these voices go on forever... stopping them slowly but surely. So, be nice to yourself today, it's like all of our "first day"... it's the first time for the expected and unexpected. If you mess up, don't be hard on yourself because now you know and you'll do a little better the next time you find yourself in a similar (not exact) situation... I read a quote today, "we become what we want to be by consistently being what we want to become each day" -Richard G. Scott
So give yourself a break and give those around you a break. If the people in my life who love me didn't give me the benefit while I try to figure things out... well, I'd be lost.
I'm off to meditating (there's my moms voice again)! Have a great Friday!
