Happy Father's Day

I don't know who is luckier… me (because I have my dad as a dad) or my kids (because they have their dad as a dad). Happy Father's Day to these two amazing dads. Welcome to their boulevard, they are the presidents… 
obviously! 

Today Brayden was TERRIBLE. He gets so panicky and looses perspective. I hope he gets things figured out. We are trying something new, something we are referring to as “snap”. I am sure I will be following up with this.

Bella is incredibly cute and sweet. It’s almost too cute and too sweet!

Jack is solid. He is needy but he is solid. He was so excited to serve Jon today for Father’s Day. We started a restaurant called “Jack’s Warehouse Storage Unit” and it was fun! We made everyone nachos and served everyone in bed for nap time! Jack is SOLID.

Recovery Life

I'm feeling melancholy. 

Driving with the family to Newport thinking about how a year ago, while we were here, I was getting ready to present at my first fireside about body image! It feels like a lifetime ago!

It is amazing how sharing my story has changed my life! Just this week I sat with a stranger waiting for a call from Remuda. The call came while I was visiting with her. That was on Wednesday afternoon and she went in on Thursday morning.

It's amazing how "helping" others actually helps me... A MILLION TIMES MORE.

It's such a tool in my recovery. I feel so lucky. I didn't do anything special. But I sure get treated like I did!

Tennis Day

Jack had his first tennis tournament today! 

He took 2nd place!

Brayden invited Dylan to go with us! It was cute having her there with him. They like each other but what I love is that Brayden was himself around her, he didn’t alter at all! 

Brayden is "in love" and awesome. 

Jack is awesome-awesome. 

Bella is hard and awesome. 

Jon and I made some dubsmash videos, it was fun and awesome.

THIS IS MY LIFE!!!

Mother's Day

Today was great! 
I was spoiled! 

My favorite part was spending time painting my picnic table with my family. 

It was like I captured happiness in a single moment. 

Being a mom is hard and being a wife is harder. But there are moments where I feel so happy, and so content, and so peaceful and it makes all of the fear and anxiety and all of the doubt worth it. 

Happy Mother's Day.

Jack and Softball

The only thing better then watching the U of U take down ASU is watching it with this guy.

Jack is so awesome and loves life like no child I have ever seen before!

This kid makes my heart happy.
GO UTES! GO JACK!
Love you buddy!

No Room for Judgers

Advice to My Younger Self: TC 

I would rather unfriend you then keep you around if you are a judging person.

If you find yourself judging me or my family please leave.  I'm not being rude, I mean why wouldn't you want to be here anyway, right?

I love my family.
We are imperfect but we are awesome.

I am learning to love myself.
I am imperfect but I am stronger than I ever imagined I could be.

I love my husband.
He is imperfect but he is turning into the husband that I have always dreamed of having.

I have experienced a lot of pain and a lot of trauma in my marriage.
And it almost beat me... it almost beat us... and it still could, if we stop fighting for truth, for honesty, for each other.

I have experienced betrayal and hurt beyond my imagination.
And I have experienced the atonement in all of it's glory.

Don't judge our journey.
If you do, go away.  If you find yourself gossiping to another about my family then I don't want to be your friend, I'm desperate but not that desperate.

If you find yourself being able to relate to our story and our journey and you need support, I am here.
I am here.
We are here.
You are NOT alone.

http://addictionrecovery.lds.org/spouses-and-families/videos

The Togetherness Project

I am feeling blessed.
I am feeling overwhelmed.
I am feeling humble and unqualified.
I am feeling flattered.

There is a lot going on in my life.

That's a weird thing to say because I don't know of one mother out there that doesn't have a lot going on in her life.  Let me try again.

There is a lot going on in my life that is new and different and amazing and frankly, it intimidates the hell out of me!  I have been offered different opportunities to do things that I have never done before or that I never imagined doing.  It seems so guided because I haven't really reached out for these opportunities rather, they seem to be reaching out to me.

It has me wondering what God has in mind.

The Togetherness Project reached out to me and asked to present at the conference here in Phoenix in March.  I was so flattered that they would think of ME in their efforts to reach out to women who have been betrayed and hurt.  They have confidence that I have something to offer these women in their journey to healing.

ME??!??!!!!

But I was flattered, and they were confident in me, so... I accepted.
This was months ago.

Now it's not months away and I'm starting to wonder what I was thinking, what they were thinking!  What is going on???!!!

Deep breaths TC.
You can do this.

In the meantime, I want to share this experience with you because I have been supported by these amazing women in my journey to heal, to love myself, to embrace myself, to grow, learn, and to heal.  How could I not share this?  So, if you feel like you could grow by attending this conference, please do.  There are some of the most amazing therapists and specialists speaking, some of the most motivational people will be there presenting... and, you have options, so you can choose to skip over my presentation (which could very possibly end up in watching me pass out) and enjoy the other speakers!

http://www.togethernessproject.org