Over the last few weeks I find myself in a strange place.
I shared my eating disorder story. I liked sharing my story. It felt scary and vulnerable and intimidating but it also felt honest and freeing and it felt... right.
Even more then sharing my story and crossing my fingers in hopes that some forced family members and a few friends would read it, I went a little further and asked begged these people to wear PURPLE in honor of eating disorder awareness week. And, even more than sharing my story and asking begging those few readers to wear PURPLE I went a little further and got all crazy bold (and maybe a little cocky) and asked begged those family members and friends to wear PURPLE AND actually send me a photo of themselves sporting their PURPLE… what nerve!
After sending off my story and my request I sat back and realized that what I just did was risky. I was setting myself up for possible disappointment. I was setting myself up for hurt and pain after offering up something so vulnerable and sensitive and personal. What if NO ONE participates? What if people are put off? Ugh! My stomach tightened in knots anticipating the embarrassment.
So friends, here is where I find myself in a strange place. I am OVERWHELMED. Simply and humbly and emotionally overwhelmed. The love and support that I have felt these last couple of weeks has been indescribable. And because it is indescribable I won't try to describe it to you. I have started and stopped this post over and over again in a weak attempt to capture the right words and I just can't come up with anything worthy of how full my heart feels.
Rather than stumbling over my words, which I do all to often, I will just share this beautiful video of so many beautiful people.
It's pretty incredible.
You are pretty incredible.
***If you are still reading and wanna do me a favor, try to leave a comment. My parents and some friends mentioned that they were unable to… but they aren't the most tech savvy!***
I'm commenting because you asked and because I love you. :) you are incredible. People love you.
ReplyDeleteSo you're saying it was my parents lack of technology??!!!!! HAHA! Well thanks for commenting and thanks for loving me I'm SOOOOOO overly excited to see you soon!
DeleteI'm commenting and seriously just weeping (it is a little ridiculous) I didn't realize how wonderful it would feel to see how many people LOVE you Tc but they do and I am one of those people!
ReplyDelete<3 oh love love love love love to you, my friend! <3
Cecilia! Thank you! I know, it's overwhelming and humbling. Seriously, what can I say?!!! I love you, thanks for crying those happy tears, it's not ridiculous!
DeleteI like what Cecilia said. Can I say ditto?
ReplyDeleteYes you can. I love you Scabby. Seriously though. But really.
DeleteOh my goodness what an outpouring of love. It is an honor to be a part of this. Always remember that the adversary is the father of all lies. All of them so don't listen when he tells you that we arent going to love you we all do and we always will. love you and your sweet family love Suzanne
ReplyDeleteThis is so stinkin' awesome. I'm all teary eyed and giggly at the same time. Just seeing all the love and all the lovely purple can't help put make you smile. Love you TC.
ReplyDeleteAnd now I've been crying at work for 6 minutes and 51 seconds. Here's what I know: we love you because you're you. Love!
ReplyDeleteThat's a LOT of purple! <3
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